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its really hard to describe what the shits i've been through ! and i don't wanna subside cause i suffered Great inconvenience for my life ... its really hard to smile when youre cryin and screamin inside ... its hard to play roles infront of the others ... and its even more shit not to be yourself and live just like a puppet in their hands ... i'm living in a marsh that they created for me(of course i made it noisome too ...) to writhe in myseld and then drown ...
my mommy called me today and wanted me to live with them in their city , i want this too but what can i do ,?! oh god please help me .. although nothin else matters cause its all over with me ...my uncle is my guardian and he's known such a pious and dignified person to others but i think he's crafty too and wants to keep me away from mommy cause they consider her as a guilty just because she married a young boy ! and everytime i talk about leaving , they look for an excuse to prevent me ! i need to consult with sb but i can see no reliable person around me ... goddamn it ... someone take my hand please !




well ... i attended in a funeral service today (mahshid's grandma) but i was laughin all the time with soha and sare ! and everyone gazing at us !! and when i turned back nobody was home , i was alone n i heard some noise from other room , in fact i was really afraid , it was the doll's noise and it made me thinkin about ghosts... !!! i wished someone call me to talk and then RING ...Ring ... yeaaaaah , my cousin called me and wanted me to go their home n i was overwhelmed with joy ! after comin back i throwed the doll to the dustbin !
have a great week ...